Tomorrow I'm gonna leaving Moscow for a wonderful place between Samara and Tolyatti. The next Grushinfest in turn will be held there. It's the 4th Grushinfest in my life, I really grew into someone like a specialist during these years. Now I feel myself confident completely and almost unassisted. As usual on the eve of this event, my heart fills with joy but this year some different feelings are added to this. Now I know that without 데니스 I'll feel ennui wherever I am. Sometimes we can't understand each other, we often gainsaid, like teenagers do, and this is fatuous. I behaved myself like a fledgling
(such as I am...) and now I'll do everything to debar trigging a backflash once more. I need not to be so impetuous, but on the other hand to develope my equanimity. I don't want to be imprevious to deprecations, recalcitrant, refractory, intractable and mischevious any more!!!
Yesterday we were very happy while walking together, putting in order a welter of GRE-words in our heads, playing badminton and freesbee. This walk was so evanescent... I wanted the time to be freezed to enjoy that minutes a bit longer, but it flew rapidly. A parting was imminent. But I hope after several days passing we'll see each other again. I feel a deep devotion to him. In fact he is fostering me, because of him some of my human skills are developing step by step. I'll never forget him, and my cherished wish is to be able to express my profound gratitude for him someday in my life.